day two -- before

just a note before i leave for my infusion -- i'll tell you about it later -- but a song that was recommended to me today really caught my attention and often what i write in my journals and blogs online is in the form of lyrics, using words already written that express my own emotions. this is one of those.

Baby I know that all your pain will pass
I know you're sad, but it won't last
I'm betting you everything that I've got in my pocket
when you're staring out into the sky
See what you have, and don't ask why
Things can't be different
They're perfect
-- minnie driver (yes, the acress), "everything i've got in my pocket"

day one, take two

i'm sitting at home, after my first treatment, waiting for the side effects to kick in. i've been gifted with an absolutely gorgeous sunset, one of the best i've seen in a very long time. i can't help but think someone is trying to make up for the crappy day i'm having, or am about to have, anyway.

i'm starting to feel the effects of the treatment -- tired, mostly, and a little off, my words and thoughts not coming out the way i want them, slow. i'm expecting a fever, chills, muscle aches, and other flu-like symptoms, but not for a while yet, 7:30 maybe.

i was very nervous about treatment this morning, but in the end it was easy. i just lay in a bed in a little curtained alcove, had an IV placed in my left arm, and the interferon was dripped in... drip, drip, drip for a half hour or so, and then they sent me home. i think the worst part of all this is going to be the boredom. hopefully my parents will play scrabble with me while we wait.

so that's the status so far. i'll write again, when i *really* know what's about to happen to me...